From Kat's Journal

In my lil head...

I remember when I was dating this guy he would always tell me how emotional I was...He always told me I thought to much...For the longest time, I honestly thought something was really wrong with me. From then on I was self-obsessed about not being "emotional" and "thinking too much." As hard as I would try, to just brush things off, or not have any type of feelings...I couldn't, just isn't in my nature.

I've always thought way too much...felt deeply about things most wouldn't even care about. Maybe this is a flaw in my genetic code...who fucking knows. Thinking and feeling too much can def. be something negative...but at the same time...maybe it's a gift. I get so confused...

No one ever explained to me that it was OKAY to be this way...I've always been told it was wrong...something must really be wrong with you.

I never really understood words, sentences or language very well...I can't really explain it, but when people talk to me the sounds translates into images....I think I told a friend once and she looked at me as if I was crazy...probably am just a lil...=)

As self-obsessed as I am... I tend to think about a lot of random things...ie...time, perception, social constructs, color, shapes, symbols,...blah blah blah...

OK....I think I'm back to reality...haha...kinda got stuck in my thoughts again.

xoxoxokatt

You arent that hot! get over yourself!

You arenâ�™t that hot, GET OVER YOURSELF!

I was talking to one of my guy friends the other day , he said that every girl thinks that they are hot, even girls who are average or below average. He was hanging out with a girl he thought was just ok and she kept saying "I know I'm hot, I know im good looking" and all the while he was thinking that she was so full of herself. I see this a lot, a lot of people think they are so hot (and some of them are) but their egos are so big that it just makes them unattractive to everyone else. If they aren't actually hot, and think that they are, their egos just make them look stupid.

Personally I think beauty is overrated. I love a good looking guy as much as anyone else, but pretty people often don't have much to say (since they didn't have the need to develop a personality like less beautiful people did) and a pretty face doesn't last too long if you cant hold a conversation with them! I prefer a guy with a good sense of humor and something to say over a pretty face any day, although it would be great if he had good looks too! I personally don't think someone should get praised just because they look good, they didn't have to work for it, they didn't have to earn it!! I personally respect hard work much more.

I've heard a study somewhere say that cute girls have better self esteem than beautiful girls, that beautiful girls are extremely insecure. I seem to agree, I do get around a lot of pretty girls and I have to admit, a lot of them have much less substance than some of the other girls ive gotton to know. Beautiful girls are so constantly praised on their looks, it's the one thing that they know that they can depend on, that they hang onto it for dear life, and are constantly comparing themselves to other girls and thinking that they are superior.

I wasn't born with the amazing beauty of some of these girls, but I don't really think it matters, and this goes for you too!! Beauty fades (much quicker than you think!) and I think that hard work and a good heart will take you much farther and bring you much more happiness than only having good looks to offer

I bring this up because I used to be love to surround myself with pretty girls When I sit back and I observe some of these girls, they talk a lot of shit! One basic thing about happiness is that people who are truly happy don't have generally have a surplus of negative things to say. Yah I talked a whole lot of shit when I was younger, sometimes I get caught up in talking some shit even now, it's a bad habit, its addictive, and I'm catching myself and trying to make myself stop! â�¦ honestly it is just fun to gossip sometimesâ�¦but these days I try to be the one listening more than talkingâ�¦and maybe one day I wont even bother to listen to it any more, hopefully!

Its fun to have a group of pretty girls to party with (and I know the guys love it too) but I'm finding that these days its more important to have someone who has more talk about than just boys, hair and makeup and shopping. Seriously the preoccupation with boys is ridiculous, there are more important things in life than trying to play the field and see how many guys you can make fall in love with you.

What about you? How important is beauty to you??

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You arent that hot! get over yourself!